What is a Langkah?

Langkah (Indonesian) - noun: literally step, move, pace, action, measure, stride, leap, foot, footstep, gesture, tread, footpace

In Indonesian martial arts, Pencak Silat, it commonly refers to geometric patterns on the floor used to train footwork and develop an understanding of the role of the lower body in maintaining balance and a base from which to generate power.

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Sunday, August 13, 2017

Life Raft

"It's funny. The day you lose someone isn't the worst, at least you've got something to do. It's all the days they stay dead." -- The Doctor (Peter Capaldi), *Dr. Who*, S09E11, "Heaven Sent"

Ain't that the truth!

When I heard my brother, Rick, had died, I went numb and immediately started making plans to get from the Philippines to Indiana.

Planning kept me distracted.

Once the plan was made, I had most of a day remaining until my flight left. *Then* the hell started. I had to start dealing with the fact of his death. I had to contemplate life without talking to him, without seeing him, without exchanging banter or rolling my eyes at his ineptitude with sarcasm. I realized I would never again make fun of his narcissism or be able to call him when I needed backup for some scrape I'd gotten into. I'd never again have to haul his ass out of some fire he'd found himself in. I'd never hit him or be hit by him in training again. I'd never get to see him play with his kids again. I'd never ... 

Damn. That sucked, and the pain overwhelmed me like a tidal wave. When it did recede, it was only to build strength so it could knock me flat again.

Over time, of course, I learned to ride the waves. I built a raft of emotional scar tissue and moved on with my life because life moved on. I learned to navigate it without my dearest compadre.

Of course, sometimes the tides rise too high for my raft, and I get washed under again. It happens less frequently as the years pass because, with each sorrow-bath, I improve my raft and my navigation skills, but the ocean is always there.

The Wandering Guru

Rick and I, ready for Ren Festivities

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